someone

Someone...

Someone who will ruin my sleep...

Someone who will tease me when I stink...

Someone who will keep my things when I don't want to...

Someone who will take my things without or late permission, too...

Someone who will share a bed when I want to be alone...

Someone who will go first to toilet and I wait for a long time...

Someone who will turn on the lights when I want the room to be dark...

Someone who will talk on the phone noisily when I want around to be silent...

Someone who will cook for me when I want to eat out...

Someone who will tell me not to buy this but that...

Someone who will plan with me to go out on a trip...

Someone who will bother me when things get some problems...

Someone who will ask for a grandeur wedding...

Someone who will be excited to wear white with a bouquet while walking...

Someone who will suggest how many children we'll be having...

Someone who will stay with me through thick and thin...

Someone who will annoy me...

Someone who will take care of me...

Someone who will make me angry...

Someone who will love the real me...

Someone like this is all I need.

doors to pedestal

Last night while I was on my way back home, I noticed a guy who was sliding the steel doors of a temple trying to pull and lock them together. It seemed like it was really hard for him to do because maybe the bearings were not new. But as I reached the gates to my place, he was able to close them. After that, a thought came to my mind. "What if the doors of opportunities get shut in my life?"

There have been so many times that chances pushed me to do the things that I like in my life but I ignored them because I was preoccupied with other stuff. I did not even give myself a chance to try them. The have opened their doors widely for me but I was stiff and hesitant to give in. I just walked right by them.

I realize that opportunities come only once or twice in life. Seize them as they offer a good thing. If there are chances to make them happen, go, and run after them. There is nothing wrong to chasing after what someone hopes or desires for. If there is a way to reach something, persevere, and make it happen.

Life's opportunities only knock rarely. And these rare moments perhaps could bring me into pedestal; moments which will change my life forever.

do you love him?

Ending up a relationship is as difficult as throwing away your favorite dress that you have taken care of for a very long time. But no matter how valuable that dress is, if repairing is impossible to achieve and the dress doesn't fit you anymore, you don't have any choice than to put it in a bin where it should belong.

I asked a friend why she is still in a relationship but doesn't love her boyfriend any longer. With a lopsided grin she answered, "It is really hard to split up with him because we have been accustomed to each other. It would truly be so difficult to cut the communication between us that we have done for almost 2 years." 

I added, "Do you love him?" 

"I don't know." She uttered without thinking twice.

There is no reason staying in a relationship where one doesn't love the other, vice versa. It is better to finally get out of it cordially with your partner than fooling him or yourself. Yes, it is difficult, but think of your partner. He would be more hurt knowing that you don't love him while you continue being together.

Stop it. End it. Set him free. Set yourself free!

rain, rain

Those tiny drops of rain

Those sweet chirps of birds

The silence in the midst of them

Makes my heart want to hold you again...

The murkiness of the horizon

The overcast which surrounds the heaven

The clouds which cover the sun

Are as thick as my gloomy heart...

On my bed

I can smell your fragrance

I can feel your hands around me

I can sense that you are beside me...

Rain, rain

Stop from falling

I don't want to yearn for him again

I want to end this crazy longing...

sang froid

It's forty minutes past nine in a cold and murky evening here in my sanctuary. In my solitary moment, I'm here in a very solitude place encoding a piece of an article.

Quite sad but I know I can get over it. When I would go back home it would be over and I could lay my back and say goodnight to this breezy night.

I kept on pondering on one thing and I can't really figure what will I do with this thing out. I'm trying to run away from it but still it haunts me and sometimes it gives me sleepless nights. Huh!!! It's really hard to banish it out in my mind.

I have no regrets of my past but there are some memories that really bother me. God, my plea is for you to heal my broken heart for what has happened in the past and give me sang froid that I really need right now.

My eyes are dropping down wanting to doze off and I need to go home by foot. I hope that when the East would rise, a new beginning would be seen and a life in serenity would embrace me...