love exhausts

"Don't say you miss me. Don't even say you love me. Those just cut my heart off whenever you speak them to me." Rina never imagined that these words came out from her mouth. She loved him but it was not right. 

Right love exists so as wrong time. Rina loved George, but he was committed to someone else. She thought that she couldn't share a man from another woman. Who would want to be just the second one? Of course, everybody wants to be the number 1 just as an athlete desires to bag a gold not really a silver or bronze.

So, Rina decided to walk away from him. But no matter how hard she evaded the thought of losing him, the more she longed for him. No days nor moments  that she did not think of him. How could she forget the one who has made her feel the true sense of affection?

Days, weeks, months, and years had passed. Rina was living a life that could seem perfect at her age. She had a good job. She had blossomed into a beautiful lady. And the time came for her to face reality-- a chance encounter of the one who once she thought her forever man, George.

How could it so happen that Rina's heart was unoccupied, and so as George. It was a chance that might have ignited the love that they had a few years back. But Rina resisted. She ignored that idea of rekindling to her former love.

Eventhough love must not end, it exhausts, and stories have to end. Sometimes, there are things that are not really meant for us.

keep me in your heart

Unexplained feeling
I have rights to brag
Excessive thinking
Weak will, this must end
Or I will get drained

I know where I stand
I know who I am to you
The moment has come
This time

It's the most I am scared of
I'm going to let you walk away
Even without a word
No more hesitations
It's time for you to find yourself
It's time for you to make things right

Am I still worth keeping?
I'm almost giving up
I'm a little bit tired
So I need you to help me out
To keep me in your heart

Now I miss the person
I had known back here
Whom I had hoped to stay the same
Even in the test of time

youth-hood

If you can only stop that ticking clock that you hear... yet each tick is a reminder that you are getting older. If it only moved counterclockwise even for a short period of time... each move would make you younger. But in reality, it goes circularly from 1 to 12. If it finishes until 12, it goes to 1 again. If you can only take the battery out but you won't because you'll lose track of time.

Time is unstoppable so as your age. It goes up and up until such time that you depart from this world. No matter how rich you are you cannot buy life. You can extend it for a short time but you will still come to a reality called 'end.' No matter how beautiful your skin is, there will come a time that that wrinkles until it becomes saggy and old.

Time doesn't repeat moments, only chances. There could be other chances but different circumstances. Enjoy being young. If there is a good opportunity to grab while you are still young, seize it as it may never happen again. 

Youth-hood is a beautiful gift to savor. There are many things you could do while you are young that you can no longer do when your old and weak. Youth-hood is like a fully-red lustrous crunchy-looking apple under its tree. You  hesitate to pick it because of its beauty.

While you are still on your youth, make the most out if. Sooner you will be out of use. Sooner you will overripe. If nobody picks you, you will eventually fall under your tree naturally .

12 kinds

12 kinds of people you see everyday in Facebook:

1. The CUSTOMER SERVICE AGENTS- They are the ones who always post 'Good morning,' 'Good day, 'Good evening,' 'Good luck,' 'Good bye,' and the other 'goods' used for greetings.

2. The NARCISSISTS- Here, there, and everywhere. A minute ago, an hour ago, or 12 hours ago, when you click home, you will see their faces with duck lips, one-eyed shut, shirtless sleeping pose or left or right hand taken shot in front of a mirror in a toilet or a public place, and many more out-of-this-world selfie scenarios. Wait, there's more. There are those people especially men who take some photos while they are taking a shower. Yahoo! You may want to try surfing them using #selfie.

3. The RESTAURATEUR - There's a joke, which is really true in some cases, that people nowadays forget to pray before eating but not forget to take a picture of the food and post it in any social networking sites immediately as possible.

4. THE ANNOYERS- Sometimes you get annoyed by unending notifications from unknown friends of friends because they tag you with others especially during holiday seasons. When you are tagged, do you untag immediately?

5. The PROSTITUTES- You would hear from people when they go to a place, "Have you checked-in?" As if it is never complete visiting a place without clicking on the 'check-in' button.

6. The HOLY COWS- They are the ones who always post positive thoughts or even quotes from bible or any other religious icons. 

7. The DRAMA KINGS & QUEENS- Today, they are loved. Tomorrow, they break up. Next week, they find someone new. Next month, they fight over a third party. Also, there are those people who post their personal fights with their loved ones with really striking and provocative words or sentences.Whew!? In addition, you will see in their timeline numerous youtube 'emo' song shares.

8. The HEALTH GURUS- They lost some weight. They have gone thinner. They share many ideas on how to be healthy like mixing lemons and honey or drinking guyabano juice. Then there are those who show topless selfies with wooden-like chests or those men or women who intentionally show off their 6 packs.

9. The ANIMALS- No further explanations. They just love posting animals on their walls. Pigs, snakes, crocodiles, cats, cheetahs, goats to name a few.

10. The GODS- They share every information they read or see anywhere here on the net. Some also think that they should be the ones to post an article first as if they are competing with others. They are simply the all-knowing people in Facebook.

11. The COLLECTORS- They are the ones who post 1000 pictures in one album with the same poses and places. Funny that sometimes you see blurred pictures but still their friends click like on them.

12. The FAKERS- Camera 360 and  Photo Wonder are among the few picture editor applications available for smart phone holders. After editing pictures from brown skin complexion to super white one, some also do some V-shape face or remove unnecessary dots and blemishes on their face using these applications. Then, you'll get shocked with their before and after posts.

enjoy the moment

"Why are you crying?" he asked her as if he did not know the reason why she was crying.

"I am just scared that this won't happen again when you leave," she cried even harder.

"But we have a promise, right? We should hold on to that promise until we'll meet again," he reassured her of the pact they did last night to never lose track of each other.

But soon after, months after months, he had gone busy with his life in the city. There were weeks that he no longer had communication with her. A year had past and the idea of her had been replaced by someone. Eventually, he had forgotten her.

She expected it to happen. She might have been forgotten and the only consolation she had had in her mind was the idea she even wrote on a a piece of tissue paper while they were together one night in a park wishing under the stars, "Enjoy the moment that we are happy because we don't know when will we have this similar feeling again."

same mistake

With my arms, I slowly put my forehead down the table. I just can't hold my emotions anymore.

I think I am sick. I am sick of this repetitive compulsion which is deeply threatening my instinct. How many times that same things happen to me over and over and over again? Committing the same mistake seems to be a magnet for me. It easily happens. I just can't learn from it. Sometimes, I think of banging my head on a wall for being so stubborn that it dwells into the same trap almost every now and then.

Right now, I just want to gain myself again. It has been lost for a long time. I has wandered in a far away world. How long will I chase it? When will I find it back again?

Right now, I just want to vanish. I just want this pain to be dissolved in the boiling longing. Let it melt until morning and vanish and leave no trace again.